thoughts

I'm in this fixing stage right now.
Where I'm discovering the more negative aspects of things I've been doing, and instead of just thinking "well, no one's perfect..." I'm doing something about it.
How long this will take, I don't know, but it hasn't been going anywhere lately. I've just been reminding myself of what I've been trying to change more and more.
NO. MORE. OVERANALYZING.
Not about others. Not about my own actions.
No more.
That is one of my worst aspects.
I just think sooo ridicuously far into things and warp them out of proportion to the point of ridiculousness.
It has bitten me in the butt sooo much.
So, I'm trying. Really freaking hard. This part will take a while. But it's going to change, darn it, even if it takes all of my effort right now.
Along with that comes a few other aspects, ones that I'm beginning to believe are somehow affecting or causing the over analyzation.
TRUST PEOPLE. Seriously. Old friends, I'm more than trustworthy with them. Newer ones...it's an uphill battle. And I think it comes from my insecurities, which trace back to elementary school and couldn't tell a friend from foe except for one lone person.
People like me. And they want to be around me. They would let me know otherwise.
I just need to TRUST that.
So no more questioning...the whole "I'm not too quiet, am I? You do want to be around me?" deal is over with. IF THEY DIDN'T WANT TO BE THERE OR DO THINGS WITH ME THEY WOULDN'T BE THERE OR ASK ME TO DO THINGS WITH THEM.
Now to just accept that...quit questioning, because I don't need to be.
*heehee...interjection...my dad is watching a Bulls game downstairs, and they STILL have the exact same intro music as they did when I used to watch them when I was nine...heehee*
Anyway.
And I need to quit being so self concious.
Besides these traits listed here, I am fine as I am.
Things to change. That are being changed. That eventually will exist only as a memory of what I once did.
I am determined...